This morning I was talking on the phone with a friend who loves to write and is a bit afraid of getting her thoughts and words out for the entire world to see. I related 150%.

I’ve been journaling, channeling and writing for years. It gives me pleasure to find a way of making a complex idea easy for a reader to understand or just to clarify a point for myself. I love to think, analyze, problem solve and find common threads in topics. I’ve been told by friends, business associates, psychics and a variety of others that I needed to write at least one book and share my life’s journey with others.

For several months, I’ve sensed the time is now to give people hope by telling them what I’ve been through (and continue to go through). It’s time people know that living a spiritual life doesn’t mean meditating daily, doing yoga, being a vegan or anything else. It’s about the day-to-day choices one makes from the center of one’s heart and for no other reason that intuitively one knows the action is “right.” Moreover, it’s not without physical and emotional pain. Tinkerbelle doesn’t have any fairy dust to make things change without the person having to FEEL – another four-letter word in our “instant” society.

I’ve been pushing the idea of publishing my writings farther and farther away because I’m afraid. I’m afraid people will think I’m odd, crazy or an impostor. I’m afraid my grammar isn’t perfect, my ideas are too far from mainstream America and I’m not pretty enough to be an author who travels the globe giving empowering seminars. I’m afraid that nobody will want to read my writings or that they will expect me to be perfect which will never happen as long as I’m alive since I’m always learning new things. I’m afraid that my assumptions may be wrong, that people will expect me to “fix” them and that “who the heck do I think I am to be writing a book.” I’m still a work in progress.

As spirit moves me, I’m going to continue to write and to consider transcribing the book I channeled as well as other things I’ve written. I’m going to “feel the fear” and do it anyway, without any attachment to what happens to the information and just for the joy of connecting the dots that create my own unique story. If God wants my materials to be published or used for some purpose, it will happen. All I had to do is to show up with the intention of writing and then let God take care of the details. Using this approach, fear ceases to be a four-letter word and my life become more joyous.