I spend a lot of time talking with people, emailing people and just observing people.  I've noticed that many of us are traveling parallel paths dealing with transitions in our lives and many of us are holding fast to the knowledge that everything happens in Divine Right Order.

Sometimes I wish the process of change/transition/growth was faster but that's just the scared kid in me responding out of fear. The adult in me knows that there is no time table for anything and that everything will lead me to where I need to go…or, more accurately, where I need to be. I'm really learning to "just be" fully in all the experiences in my life even when the scared little kid wants to run and hide behind a strong adult. I'm learning that I have to be the strong adult for my little kid and, that each time I take care of myself, my adult gains confidence and my kid calms down. I also am learning that there are at least two gifts in every situation – one for the “giver” and the other for the “receiver.” Each gift comes in Divine Right Order and involves letting God speak through our actions.

Sometimes it's a gift that I have to give someone else, and sometimes it's a gift that somebody has to give me, since giving and receiving are two sides of the same coin. Since I'm currently recovering from a “growth opportunity” and haven’t been seeing clients, that means there are still gifts I have to give and gifts I am to receive right here, right now.

For my friends, the gift they’ve received from me is my serving as an example of how to have patience and trust God, even as though I have been experiencing many sensations in my body. (I decided I liked the term “sensations” better than “pain” because “pain” has a negative connotation. In actuality, “pain” is not positive or negative; it just is. It’s my mind that chooses to see it as positive, negative or neutral and I’ve chosen to experience it as neutral.)

As a professional “worrier,” my calmness and my gratitude has astonished both my friends and me. I’ve completely surrendered the situation over to God and am very peaceful while, at the same time, I’m feeling sensations in many parts of my body simultaneously. I’m actually very proud of the way I am living moment-to-moment-to-moment instead of worrying about the future. Each moment is all there is NOW and it’s in the present where I make decisions about how I want to experience an event. That choice then leads to what I experience in the future. It’s much easier to explain this process then to actually live it. Because to live it means I have to feel ALL emotions and sensations associated with it in “real time.” It took me a long time to get to where I am “now” and I’ve taken the time to pat myself on the back – using my left hand, of course – for my courage. I’m proud of what I am doing.

For me, the gifts I’ve received from my friends are the result of their serving as God’s earth angels. For example, a friend came over on Thursday and cleaned my apartment. In so doing, she noticed that my refrigerator was almost empty. So on Friday, she called and said that she would go marketing for me. I was ecstatic. I was astonished and grateful when she refused to let me pay for the groceries. This morning, she and her husband came over. They stocked my refrigerator and then proceeded to do the cleaning that wasn’t completed on Thursday. She felt good about helping me out and I felt good about her listening to her intuition and deciding what else I might need. She was an answer to an unexpressed prayer. And her timing was perfect!

I'm open to all the opportunities that God has in store for me and I KNOW all will be revealed to me in Divine Right Order. If I get my ego out of the way, God really is providing for me; it’s just come packaged differently than I imagined. It makes the waiting so much easier when I can be of service to others by documenting my experiences in my blog.

It’s my belief that we will succeed by walking the path of change together. I intend to listen to my inner voice so I can be an earth angel for somebody else. I’ve always known how good it feels to give and now I know how good it feels to receive. Without a “receiver, there isn’t a “giver.” You need both a “giver” and a “receiver” for things to happen in Divine Right Order.